A conversation between two friends about
Friend #1
I was just listening to a praise song ... about when God doesn't move the mountains we ask Him to move .. or waters we have to go through .. something like that ... and I related it to Vicki's death and asking for her healing.. the mountain. and the waters, our tears and grief. Any loss is grievous. But it's a journey - whether through mountains of accumulated treasures to be rid of or a body racked with pain waiting for death to release into God's arms.
an image flashed through my mind while thinking about this song ... asking "I will trust , I will trust ..I will trust in You." When I stop hoping in my ability to make something happen by praying fervently, or continuously or with great faith. but release the situation and begin trusting in Him.
I have times when the memory of Vicki's last days torment my mother's heart .. her suffering yet strength to encourage us she would be okay .... and after a year and half I'm still learning to Trust ... Him. Sighhhh .. I switched on Pandora radio to Christian selections and I can almost hear her singing ....I know her voice and her heart and the words that kept her from abandoning her faith right up to the end...
Phew .. I guess I just had to share this moment with someone .. and you are a tender heart who know about grief, loss, sadness .. and joy in the midst of those trials.
Okay .. on with my day. Blessings!
Friend #2
That song shattered me when i first heard it.
Sometimes it is overwhelming thinking of the burden i have yet to carry in the near future.
Then i think of the scripture that "the battle belongs to the Lord" and how He'll "never leave or forsake me"
I fight to remember that every second of every day is just that. A second of time. A second where i have a choice to let go and trust Him.
Your journey gives me courage to continue. The courage to take another step of letting go of both people and things and only embracing the Lord
As all my "stuff" loses its importance in my life I'm finding that God is taking His rightful place as the only thing that i cant live without.
And every day i find other situations to remind me of how powerless i truly am.
Without His breath in me i would cease to exist. Without faith i would cease to try.
Thank you for letting Him encourage and strengthen me through you.
There have been times i was so completely covered in despair i was at a total standstill.
Inch by inch i pulled my ostrich head out of the sand.
Some dsys i still dont like what i see and hide my head again. Some days i enjoy the sun,
one day we will see paradise and nothing will matter. The Glory of the Lord will wash away every tear and pain.
Until then i pray ministering angels surround us all
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I asked my friend's permission to share our heart to heart on my blog. She said yes.
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Happy New Year 2020
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